“Why do you want to do this?” I asked, with urgency and a heavy heart.
“Because I don’t wanna get fat or have to tell my parents,” she responded. Her voice was calm and full of indifference, as if my question made reference to the weather rather than the abortion she was about to undergo.
Two hours later, the unwanted baby inside the womb of my 17-year-old mentee was gone. I will never forget that day and how it felt. Holding the phone, pleading with her to let her baby live. To consider God’s sovereignty and how involved he was with the new life she sought to rid herself of. The scenario was weighty at its core because I was conversing with a teenage girl on the brink of committing murder.
Perhaps that’s you, right now. You’ve found out that you are pregnant and you’re considering an abortion. After all, this wasn’t a part of your plan — the baby, that is.
“It” seems to be an unexpected inconvenience. Your freedom is at stake, your body under siege, and your life potentially under the authority of another, or so you think. The temporal pleasures of sex weren’t supposed to lead to a lifetime of parenthood. Now the only option up for consideration is to call the nearest Planned Parenthood and schedule the appointment you believe will maintain the autonomy you enjoy.
I do not presume to know you, your circumstances, or the complete array of thoughts at home in your heart, but I do know that if you are considering abortion, it is because your mind and heart have been led to believe lies. These lies come from a dark place, where light and truth don’t reign, only pride. The same pride that caused Eve to assume true freedom and happiness could only be experienced apart from the will of God. Now, due to sin’s influence on your logic, you are following in her footsteps.
I beg you to walk another way. By faith, take another route — the path that leads to life, not death.
I got pregnant with my daughter on my honeymoon. Initially, I did not look on my pregnancy with joy, but rather the recognition of another life inside of me felt burdensome. I had plans for me and my husband to spend the beginning of our marriage alone. No children. No unexpected responsibilities. Just the freedom that I believed children would hinder.
Though I did not consider abortion, I still had the heart of an abortionist. I saw the life inside of me as a stumbling block to my joy. I looked at this baby not as a gift from God but as a mistake. And from that perspective, I can understand your anxiety.
I know how it feels to be caught off guard by Providence and desperately want your will to be done instead of God’s. Yet there is still a choice to be made. Either let your actions be governed by lies or believe the truth.
The truth is this:
1) Murder Will Not Make You Happy
You were born convinced that true joy is discovered apart from God. That sin is much more pleasurable to you than Christ. Your heart is inclined to choose everything other than God for its satisfaction, and this disposition has led you to this point — to the idea that the murder of your unborn child is the most rational way to preserve your joy.
But, to the contrary, the one true joy available to us all can be found only in Christ. To know God is to know authentic joy. Fight to believe that the sin of abortion will not satisfy you. Allow the recognition of such to lead you into the arms of the only Savior sufficient to save you. There, you will find forgiveness and freedom from the penalty and power of sin. Then you will know joy and happiness in God, and God alone, under whom this can be said of you: “Blessed [Happy] are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied” (Matthew 5:6).